choices

Back in time

I think i am too damaged

And too broken

To myself too be happy

But I can choose differently 

I can choose to be happy

I understood it all

I am an ordinary person

But I was born smart and pretty 

A prestigious university, a job at big firm and a successful life

People try hard but not everyone get to achieve them 

But I know I will

I'm hungry to succeed

And I work hard to get what I want 

I work so damn hard

I bet I'll be exhausted my entire life 

and

Then my crush came in my life,

That boy whom i always want to be part of my life

And May be in my few young years too....

And i got him 

He is like like a flower

Who blooms my life again n again

I find everything 

now i have someone who care for me,

Who love me

Who knows that 

I have a side who needs rest, love

and here,

slowly time passes 

Our love become so strong 

We are like power couple 

But 

Every second day is always unpredictable at least for me,

So here again

One another day

other boy came into my life

Yes other boy 

As my mentor or my friend even sometimes as my teacher

My Mr unpredictable 

My sunshine

And 

Slowly he understands that 

I am his perfect partner 

He shares his dreams with me, want me to be part of at like his three friends 

With all his friends and with me 

And 

We all start together as four 

From zero to some 

Slowly we build our empire 

And  

He said he likes me 

But one minute

I mean

What, why, how

I mean No

This is nothing

I have my love

so he said no he loves me 

For him 

love is always selfless 

And 

As time goes on 

Our success reach level by level up

But in mean time

One more thing happen 

I don't know 

How and why 

His presence makes me smile 

His Caring nature heals me 

But

No I have my love 

He love me so much 

And

How will I decide,

Whom i chose 

And then I decide 

I'll leave both of them

Yes I still love both of them

Yes I still feel their smile gives me goosebumps and a different kind of warmth 

But I choose me 

Yes I don't want to be Alone

I know that now 

But I do not know is how to be the girl they need me to be...

The girl they truly deserve 

I don't know how to do this

May be 

That's why

We call this as love 

May be 

That's why

They said love is selfless

Still I don't know what is it, what was that and what will next 

Yes we are young still 

We have a long life ahead

Yes 

We are still together but as friends 

They are still my best friends

One is my sunshine

And 

One is my flower

And 

Yes I will always love them

May be

one day things will be bit less compicated

Still I don't know how to make things less complicated but I want to try because I love them and I don't want to lose them 

Yes both of them

I know it sounds weird 

Believe me, for me this is very weird too....

But sometimes things are like this very puzzled 

You don't know what it is but it Is something 

And here I have to make my choice

so

my choice is just me

Only me 

Because I know 

If I want a life of purpose....

By inverting the notion....

That everything happens for the reason

Redefine it.

Not as some future explanation

For terrible tragedy

Or glorious achievement 

But as validation

Of the deliberate choice

That lead us to these critical junctures

In the first place 

Assert authority over chance, fate

And destiny, because everything 

Does happen for a reason 

And that reason is me 

To attain elite success 

I must be willing 

To make the hard choices

Do the unpleasant things 

Risk my most valuable Assets 

And of away with the shackles 

Designed by society to limit me

Love, marriage, children 

And above all

The uninvited imposition 

Of lesser people's moral agendas 

Because nothing worthwhile 

Is ever achives without sacrifice 

And true greatness 

Only come to those.....

Willing to pursue it...

At 

Any cost.......

So here my choice

Is me...

And my cost is to sacrifice everything I have...