who I am ?

At the age of 8,

I came back to my hometown 

Yes, my town, my people

Yes this is the place where I realize that 

I want to run,

So I run, 

Me and my track and this is it 

Everybody loves me, respect me

Everything is so perfect

At the age of 13,

A boy yes a boy, my teenage love,

Everything is fine,

My life and me, there is a lot of clapping who makes me feel that I am so special,

And my love and my teenage love story

But wait 

what happen 

I loose everything 

Just because I laugh with many, I trust easily, my own people backstab me even my own love..

And 

I'm ruined 

People goona make fun of me 

Now no love, no more winning 

My ears filed with noises, 

a lot of hatred noises,abusing noises

I just wanted to disappear 

So I disappear

Nobody saw me for years 

The reason why this hurt me because they used to be all I had,

I felt really alone,

I felt really bitter, 

I felt like a wounded animal lashing out 

Soon,

I figured out 

I had to reset my everything 

I had to deconstruct my life for me

For my own personal sanity

And here I fall, I fall apart 

Then I rise, rise slowly , and rise high

I am just trying to be as educated as possible

On how to respect people 

On how to deprogram the misogyny in my own brain 

Toss it out, reject it, and resist It

Like,

There is no such things as a slut 

There is no such thing as a bitch 

There is no such thing as someone who bossy,

There's just a boss

I don't want to be condemned for being multifaced

And here slowly, slowly 

I built my empire 

Sometime I am injured, wounded, tired, crying

But then I built my empire,

And then, 

At the age of 21, 

I am young 

I worked hard and I'm nice to people 

I can't change what's goona happen to me 

But I can control my learning, words and my emotions

Now everyone know 

That I deserve to be here 

Yes not as runner, 

But as a lawyer, 

A powerful women, 

I heard echoes of new words,"awesome"

Still a long road ahead 

Still a lot of things to deal 

But 

Now I understand 

People are going to judge you anyway,

So you might as well do what you want 

Everybody has that point in their life, where you hit a crossroads

 and

you've had a bunch of bad days 

and 

there's different ways 

You can deal with it 

and 

the way I dealt with it was 

I just turned complete to words, my knowledge, my learning....

Without your past 

You could never have carried here .....

Still a long road ahead 

But now I am not lonely, 

Not any more weak 

I have my something and that is my strength, my power and My fire....